You Can Survive the Recovery

To begin with, I don't do much reading into dreams. I am not the sort of person who believes every dream has great meaning or something. However, I do know that deams are is the bodies way of processing emotions and feelings and events that have happened through the day. Dreaming about something helps put [...]

Playlist of my Life

When I was in the hospital, one of the activities we did was make a soundtrack for our life and design a CD cover for the playlist. I came into that meeting late, and of course coldn't remember any of the songs at first - but I did finally manage to do it. After I [...]

Creativity is an Act of Defiance

What I am going to have to start seriously doing: I have got to start taking my own advice. I have to start fighting for myself. I left my dad. I renounced his way of life. There is no reason to keep holding on to the lies and blocks and restraints he built in my [...]

Hell in High Heels

So it is ten in the evening and I am going to have to wake up and be functioning in five hours which is way less sleep than I need to properly function but...what the bloody hell. I have tried for two hours now to go to sleep and if I am going to lay [...]

Who Lives, Who Dies, Who Tells Your Story

"Let me tell you what I wish I'd known when I was young and dreamed of glory: you have no control who lives, who dies, who tells your story." As writers, it is just another way I can excersise control. I know the plot, I know the characters, and I know what I want to [...]

Shall We Dance?

Oh. My. Word. This... this is awesome. And so much better than I remember. For those of you who know me, I love singing. Love it. Always have a song in my head, and often have a song on my lips too. I memorise songs annoyingly quickly, and at this point probably have a song [...]

Nightmares…

"My dad was an obsessed bastard! All that crap he dumped on me about protecting Sam - that was his crap! He's the one who couldn't protect his family. He's the one that let Mom die, who wasn't there for Sam. I always was! He wasn't fair! I didn't deserve what he put on me. [...]

Sudden (Stupid) Realisations

So I am starting to write this post on the same day I published my last one. I kind of came home from camp with a lot to say... So congratulations! I actually have content. And yes, that means I just got off my Biblical/love rant and I'm kind of wrung out. But this is [...]

Let it Go

At this point, that song is either loved or hated. Probably mostly hated by this point. Fortunately for myself, I was isolated and so I missed the entirety of the craze. I have never been into the Disney Princesses - I have watched three of the films so far, and only because they weren't the [...]

I Am NOT Ugly

Okay! So. Ranting first. You do not owe anyone anything. If they did not spend nine months carrying you and hours birthing you, or if they did not pay to keep you alive during your formative years: you. do. not. owe. them. Also known as! Don't invite tons of people to your wedding, darlings. If [...]