Until Dawn

I don't even know why I watched it. Horror and I do not mix, and it should have been something I immediately removed from my youtube suggestions. See, I was introduced to Markiplier's channel by being suggested to his playthrough of the butterfly effect playstation game Until Dawn. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aHmW4VBoSis With the quality of the play-through [...]

The Pain is Not Forever

Isn't that what they always say? Isn't that the platitude they tell you - that things will get better, that things have to get better? When? When will things get better? When will this end? Oh, you're only twenty - you're so young! You have your whole life ahead of you! Yes. I know. That's [...]

Wibbly Wobbly

Why can't life be like fiction? I mean that seriously, not just in a 'why can't there be magic' or 'why aren't people as hot' or something like that. Do you know what is different between fiction and reality? It's not the magic, or the attractiveness, or the lack of age or sex barriers: its [...]

Playlist of my Life

When I was in the hospital, one of the activities we did was make a soundtrack for our life and design a CD cover for the playlist. I came into that meeting late, and of course coldn't remember any of the songs at first - but I did finally manage to do it. After I [...]

Trigger Warning

So I posted the notice about me going into the hospital late - but I guess it worked out for the best since I didn't inadvertantly terrify anyone when I dropped off the face of planet earth. That being said: I got back on the earth last night! For anyone who hasn't caught on, the [...]

Open Letter

Dear God, I am sorry. I am so sorry for all that I am. Someone told me that saying sorry doesn't mean anything without true remorse and the intent to change. I don't know if I can change. I don't know if I am meant to change. What am I doing wrong? What did you [...]

Hell in High Heels

So it is ten in the evening and I am going to have to wake up and be functioning in five hours which is way less sleep than I need to properly function but...what the bloody hell. I have tried for two hours now to go to sleep and if I am going to lay [...]

At a Loss

What do you do when you can't really talk to anyone? How do you get people to understand that sometimes you just need other people to tell you things? Why do you keep trying when it just feels like you are retreading the same exact routes over and over again? I don't know why I should [...]

Dichtomy

So do I truly agree with Liberal convictions - are they truly correct and practical - or am I simply in deep denial of my upbringing? There is a book I read when I was much younger called Great Expectations. I didn't understand it then. I didn't know why it was great expectations - it is [...]

Who Lives, Who Dies, Who Tells Your Story

"Let me tell you what I wish I'd known when I was young and dreamed of glory: you have no control who lives, who dies, who tells your story." As writers, it is just another way I can excersise control. I know the plot, I know the characters, and I know what I want to [...]